Big Fat Liar

Sunday, February 17, 2008; 12:00 am by Not Suzi.

Well, OK. Maybe I’m not actually a blatant liar, but I have lied by omission. My life is a mess. I’m going through a serious life transition right now. I went into something trusting and loving with an open heart, giving all I had the best I knew how and now I am paying the price.

I’m a pretty strong person and good at moving on and leaving emotional baggage behind. I’ll be fine. I’ll have some scars though but nothing too bad. Just a reminder of how good and bad it was at one time. I’m both surprised and blessed at the number of people that care for me and want to help. Friends, family, acquaintances…its good to know that I have a support system when I really need one. I’m usually the one helping and wanting to save someone. It’s hard for me to ask for help but its a relief to know it’s really there and I can let someone take care of me when I’m vulnerable.

Maybe I’ll go into more details at a later date but I can’t right now as I’m feeling kinda raw and emotional. I’m hurt, disappointed and angry and life is kinda surreal right now. I need to get to a place where I can start to heal. In this past year there has been an unbelievable amount of stress on me. You know when you say you’re reaching your limit? Well, I’ve found mine and it is not a place I ever want to visit again.

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